That Moment... and Other Things

That moment when your precious, over-sized heart of a six year old boy
says "what the hell?" to his grandmother. Yep. The world grew quiet.
It was stunned. A knowing mother summons her child to her with wisdom
already back logging her speech ability. Three adults work in tandom
to dissect the happening and help the boy understand right from wrong
in that instance.

It's a HARD lesson to grasp and to explain. How do you tell a child
they can't say certain things when they hear "all wise and powerful"
adults say those things in life and on television? How do you explain
to a six year old boy who desperately wants to be an adult so he "can
make his own rules" that just because you're an adult doesn't mean you
are: wise, intelligent, good, kind, caring, aware, or a myriad of
other possitive traits????

This is where we need the Lord! It's these moments that I use the
wisdom God has given me over my life and because of my prayers. My
sweet boy needs to know he did something he shouldn't have AND he
needs to hear/ see/ feel/ believe that we love him regardless,
understand why it happened, accept his apology, and most important
-that it is not something to be ashamed of.

My sweet child melted as we talked through this with him. His heart is
so big. His spirit is so kind. This world is so confusing. He uttered
the words "I feel ashamed" and I was quick to scoop him up into my
arms and tell him it was nothing to be ashamed about, I still loved
him very much, and that mommy and daddy were to blame for allowing him
to watch Big Bang Theory with us. It's a really mild show compared to
the smut that clogs the waves BUT it is too adult for my kiddo. We
will have more of these instances and that is okay.

Parenting is important. We work hard at it. It shows. God is faithful
to provide us with the wisdom and direction to help us "raise them up
in the way they should go".

Sawyer asked me to leave the room where he sent himself so he could
have a little more alone time to process what happened. He is so
mature and capable for so young a person. I am proud.

Other things...
Today we had water play outside with the sprinkler gecko Gram gave him.
We walked to his friend Charlie's house to see about playing but they
weren't home.
We went to Ralph's because he's been asking for Taffy cookies- and we
needed a few other things.
He wants to be an adult so bad that sometimes he helps with Dempsey in
ways he ought not to- as in a parent role, authority instead of equal.
Another constant learning.

Lord, thank you so very much for the honor of being a parent. It is a
special job and I take it very serious. It requires a lot of me and
most days I willingly give all that is required. Thank you, Lord, for
filling me up when I feel depleted. Thank you for the spirit you have
given Sawyer. It is a joy to see You through his eyes and in his
heart. He truly loves You and there is nothing greater than that! I
pray that you will continue to guide me and Jake as we parent this
marvelous boy. He makes me so proud, God, and I know he makes you
proud too. I pray that you will never allow me to lose sight of who HE
is... who You designed him to be. Amen.